First time created a blog...

Blogging is never my favorite. But, today I am so bored that my hand itch for typing. So, I started to write blog. I felt that blogging is lack of privacy. I still prefer FaceBook than blogging. Nevertheless, I started blogging because today I am so bored. So, why I am bored?

I had a wonderful life all this while. But recently, I felt that my life changed. It is hard to describe but I don't really like it because I felt less contented. Maybe I want more of something to satisfied my desire. But how this is happening to me?

Thankfully I read few articles from website today and it really taught me a lot. The title is ' The hardest thing in life is not to strive, but to make decision'. It is actually a video from Chai Li Xun that converted into words(FYI I watch the video before). I realize that I had a habit known as self centered mindset. This behavior is dangerous as I always treat my self as the most important individual in my life. I never thought of my parents that raise me up and taught me the meaning of life all this while. The self centered mindset would lead to selfish and ego. He stated that this mindset is a norm in Western society where the Westerners always make decision based on their own good.

Maybe I am too self centered to the extend that I sometimes ignored what ever people are talking to me in a conversation. I choose to listen when I wanted to listen. Before this, I was still a good listener but now everything changed. The author also state that, in order to achieve happiness in life , one must have filial. When one has the thought of filial, he or she will start to think of other and build up the thankfulness thought. When one has the thankfulness thought, the person will always appreciate whatever he or she has. This will slowly eliminate the desire of wanting more.

I had to admit that the author had pinned point my crucial point which is filial. To be honest I seldom treat my parents the way they should. In fact, I always blame them when they can't afford something for me. He also gave an example to start practice filial. The example was a teacher that bow to her parents during her birthday. This is because her birthday is her parents toilful day where mother gave birth to her. More importantly, for how long she lives, that is the duration of her parents had to take care of her. That is 30 plus years of hard-work and yet the parents does not complaining anything, just gave. There is no reason parents must grow their child but yet they did with no regrets. Therefore, we as their sons or daughter must pay back their effort with no complain as well. Most people only will thought of cakes and party on birthday. That is the sign of self centered mindset and not the filial mindset.

I think I should change to be a better man. Start building the mind of filial and act accordingly. My parents had take good care of me for the last 24 years and I should start to pay back. I never thought I would write this long for my first post, but I just want to share the lesson I learnt today. By the way, here is a short summary of what I did today and it is totally boring. I woke up on 9am and received a sms from my final year project supervisor that he will be in the laboratory at 9.30am. So, I rush to the laboratory to meet up with him and discuss on my project. I lost the enthusiasm to work on my project as I felt helpless doing the project all alone. Nevertheless, I had to continue doing it in order to graduate. Then, I had my lunch in my room while searching for some reading material. That is the time I found the article that I mention above. Then, the rest of my time is just sleeps and surfing the net. It is quite boring so I started my blog. Same day for tomorrow I guess as I just received my supervisor's sms that he will be in the laboratory at 8.30am tomorrow.

I had made my decision to do the laboratory which is the most difficult thing in life according to the article I read today. When I recalled, I sort of made a wrong decision. But look on the bright side, at least I can learn how to do laboratory work by my self. All I need now is the motivation to finish off my project. Kind of waiting the motivation to come, but I know the motivation doesn't come by it self. I should self motivating to achieve my goal.

By the way, this is the link to the article I read today.
http://www.360doc.com/content/09/0911/00/236896_5820457.shtml